So there’s a song by Tasha Page-that said:
“Back when I was seventeen
Like every other girl I used to have big dreams
But then I got introduced to some other things…
And suddenly the church girl I was originally
Became different
See the wrong things can call your name
I chose to answer when the Spirit said walk away
And now I live with circumstances that I can’t erase
I just wish I could go back now to yesterday
‘Cause it was different”
This is sooooo my story, It wasn’t until I actually listened to the lyrics that I could relate to what Tasha was talking about. Im not the type that listens to music just because, but Im that one who listens to the lyrics and figure out where it applies in my life. The day that I heard this song it was on repeat along with tear drops. I was like Lord you really allowed someone other than myself to encounter something that would change their entire Life.(WOW) My question growing was always WHY, WHY ME, what was I doing so wrong that I would fall into an encounter like this. Never received an answer but I went with the saying that Many always say, and that’s “WHY NOT ME”. I lived with the Why not me for a long time, no longer seeking answers because I was stuck on the saying and felt that I was a chosen one to go through and tell other people that God was this and that. Don’t get me wrong God is a lotta things but I was unable to articulate what was really happening at the time so to release what I was feeling which didn’t work I just simply said Why not me!
I did and still wanted to blame so many for what was happening but couldn’t really. YES life happens but we can get a hold of it at some time and run for our lives. Its the part where she said “See the wrong things can call your name, I chose to answer when the spirit said Walk away” yup that happened and I should’ve walked away but because I wasn’t spiritual equipped at that time I couldn’t walk away, but I do remember a time where I wouldn’t let anything get in the way of my spirituality because of the fear that was put into me by my former Pastor, it was serious and it kept me on my knees and toes. (if that make sense) But hey here were are in the struggle has become Real. Not struggling with my faith but more so my discipline while walking by faith.
The ups, downs, highs and lows have really taught me I’m not where I really thought I was. I’ve faced many set backs, and settled for something’s that I know I should have never, I’ll take those as character building abs learning from my mistakes! ❤️ —— continue to walk with me through my blogs I promise you I’m going somewhere 😊